and so this is christmas...

well, today im on holiday so im enjoying staying home and not having to go to work, even though the weather is quite depressing...it hasnt stopped raining all day and in malta, if it rains, the whole country stops functioning and proceeds to flood and unless you own a landrover you are basically stuck. mais qu'est-ce qu'on faire?

lately i have been feeling a little fed up because i just want this course to finish, i want my degree and i want to start working and start concentrating on my life. i know that must sound a little odd, but at the moment my thoughts are swamped with academia and there are other things i need to think about and want to think about but there is just no room for in my brain. im almost 22 and i feel like i want to start my career as a nurse and even though there are only a few months left, i am slowly but surely running out of patience. i am exhausted almost all the time and everyone i encounter seems to want something from me...my patients, my age-ing parents, my younger sister, my tutors at school, my colleagues and my friends. its always more of this, less of that, get it done on time, if you don't you're done for, your a BSc student so we expect alot of you....

The problem is i feel like i have run dry and i have given all i have to give and now people are just taking and leaving me in the red. i just feeling like screaming out "STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!" and taking a deep breath or two. i feel like a big pressure cooker and i need to let out my steam. God that sounds sexual.

On a more positive note, my clinical practice is going great, every day i feel more and more prepared for this final exam. my thesis is going along fine though it is a bit of a headache and things between me and my man are good too. i feel like we have reached a sort of comfort zone, where we can appreciate each other's silences and basically bask in them. we have come to accept each other's differences and realise that these are the things that brought us together in the first place. if we were exactly the same, we would never progress in life. i will not call him my better half, i believe 1 and 1 make 2. however i do believe that two minds are better than one and by exposing each other to different schools of thought we benefit as 2 people and as 2 lovers. and right now i am more in love than ever.

i think i'll leave it at that for today. but a few words before i depart:

1)those of you who comment on my blog, i thank you all with all my heart and graces (even you who choose to remain annonymous and write lude and sick things). i like to see my writing appreciated. i wish that you would all, however, tell me who you are and how you know me and how you got to hear about my blog.

2)its the holiday season, a very stressful time of the year, physically, mentally, emotionally and financially. just make an effort to love one another and to keep a well-wishing attitude.

Good tidings i bring to you and your kin, i wish you a merry christmas and a happy new year.